Hubris

It's a condition that Bayard has a talk about on the training page; Esther had some good things to say particularly (message 2848). "When you act under this condition you think you can get away with a/thing," Esther wrote. You'll skip training, you'll skip eating right, you'll skip doing immunics.

Well, this past weekend, hubris was my condition.

We took mom out into the world on Saturday to a truckload sale at the fairgrounds; we got back and I didn't feel so hot -- I had "caught" something. Mom was sniffling and coughing, and I tested that she had caught something too. So what did I do? I skipped doing immunics for myself and did immunics with mom. I merged bodies, removed removed removed: colds, flus, symptoms of colds, desires for sickness, anything she caught that day; I installed health, heightened immune system, desire to be healthy and well -- we worked for about 20 minutes, but as mom doesn't actually do immunics (she does try but can't really stay connected), I really had to stay focused to get anything done.

A few minutes after we stopped, I accessed that vitamin C would help, so I gave her 1000 mg.

Now if you're an immuner, you'd probably be asking me right about now if I took any myself. No. Did I go on and do the immunics on myself that I did when I merged bodies with mom? No. I thought, "it's only a little cold -- I've whacked these with no problem at much later stages. I'll work on mom first, then I'll get mine later before I go to bed."

HUBRIS.

I was too tired later to give my own practice the same kind of attention that I'd given to working with mom -- I fell asleep and kept hitting it when I would wake up in the night sniffly. But it was too late.

So I got what amounted to a stomach flu over the weekend; I was sick for the first time in the year and a half that I've been practicing immunics. And not only was I sick, day before yesterday I started developing cold sores on my mouth that are reminiscent of the herpes virus.

I'm working on these things as well as body issues today, but I'll tell you: hubris sucks. Do your practices. Do them now.