For Love and Money

After Keely's great lesson on "comethroughs" this morning in our Yahoo Immunics group, I decided to go back to the lessons on trauma and move through them again. I've never been a "numbers girl," so when I've worked through these lessons before, I've not approached them with the respect I know they deserve.

So today I decided that I would test if there were ways to remove trauma *besides* naming every one of the 5-10,000 traumas that I tested that my bodies were holding, and I tested Yes. I tested that I can't remove them by body like I do other things, but I *can* work on them in other ways. One way I tested that I can at least "get at" removing them is by subject matter; another way I tested that I can get at them is by time frame.

I decided to start with subject matter; I went to remove all trauma associated with men in all of my bodies, and that wasn't going to work. I narrowed: all trauma associated with men I've been in love with; that still wasn't getting it (there have been QUITE a few! ;-) I narrowed further: I named the last man I was in a serious relationship with, whom I'd known for 25 years, and I tried removing all trauma from all of my bodies that had been caused by my relationship to him. ZOOM! THAT was the ticket!

What happened next was that all of these memories -- the particular traumas that I'd been reluctant to attempt naming in order to heal -- came flying up and I knew they were leaving me. I continued to remove, and then at a certain point, I felt the need to install healthy connections and healing where the trauma had been held in my bodies, so I did that.

Then I thought, I wonder if I can SEPARATE these traumas from my SELF -- if I continue to separate them from ME, can I get some relief from them before they're completely removed? I tested Yes. So then I did that, then came back to remove traumas caused by my relationships to a couple of other particular men, then installed health and love and peace in the places that had been holding trauma. I continued to install myself in the calm clear place.

Finally, I worked through the "time frame" idea -- I removed all traumas that I have brought on myself this year so far. Then I removed all traumas that I brought onto myself last year, but I feel I was only partially effective with that one. BUT that brought me back to subject matter, so before I quit, I decided to try to remove all traumas that I've brought on myself through my relationship to money.

First, I separated those traumas from my SELF -- THAT felt good! Next, I began removing. Again, as I was removing, I was having memories of particular traumas as I felt them being released, but it was like in the movie Mortal Kombat, where all of the trapped souls ascend: I saw particulars, but I knew that others were being released as well. After I'd removed for a little while, I decided to repair my DNA's relationship to money; I also installed the attraction to money in my DNA.

Suddenly, something that Bayard had said about how your spiral body is negatively altered based on a mental body response to something kicked into place, and I knew that it was true: by having had negative experiences with and feelings about money, my bodies have actually come to REJECT money. So I continued to install an attraction to money in all of my bodies in between removing traumas about money.

I feel like I've really done something this morning!

Peace out!